I am guilty of consistently forgetting to post to my own ‘blog’!  I often find myself checking and double checking for authors and/or publishers (and often readers) that have booked the blog to talk about their writings, their lives, what is going on in their world and how they want to share with others either as a teacher, a peer, or both.  Wow – try to say that sentence out loud without having to take a few breaths!

Then comes the 10th of the month and I’m always late posting to the blog!  Is it that we forget ourselves?  Is it that we get so tied up in wanting to work for others and wanting to set the boundaries of expectations so high (or perhaps so tightly) that we often do too many jobs and not well?  I think it’s better to have 3-5 jobs and do them well than to have 10-20 and do them all poorly.  Is this a woman thing?  Is this why we lay down at night and though our bodies are trying to rest – our minds never stop?  My husband would say it’s because I can’t shut up awake or asleep, and after I’m through punching him I wonder if he’s right on some level.  Women are terrible for running their lives even while sleeping.  One time I can remember lying in bed wondering if moving my kitchen table would give me more space in my kitchen.  You have to picture the fact that my kitchen is very small and is also part of my entrance – which means when you walk into the house you’re greeted with mountains of shoes and boots and kitbags – you name it! – and then the table is there.  I tried to picture it in my head that by turning the table I could make a bit more room for the shoes, move the rack around, perhaps set a mat down…can you see it now?  Can you imagine your brain working overtime?  It was so bad that by 3am I had to get up and make my way down the stairs to the kitchen to move the table.  It was 4:30am before I made my way back to bed, only to have my husband ask what the ‘hell was that noise’?  I noticed he didn’t get up to SEE what the noise was.  Heaven forbid he move in case I need help – or maybe someone was breaking in and he’d have to fight…  lol

At work I’m thinking about home; at home I’m thinking about work; during supper I think about exercising; during exercising I’m dreaming about food (suppose that’s natural!).  The only time I think my brain really shuts down and stops ‘thinking’ is during reality TV and that’s simply because those shoes drain any brain power you may have with their stupidity and falsehoods.  Ugh!  How I hate those shows.  I mean – do any of you REALLY think the bachelor is going to find ‘the one’??  How many have?  I think two of the women have, but that’s because we know what we want – men just see boobs.

I’d love to hear from you readers of the blog – do you find that you can’t get your mind to settle?  Do you find yourself not complying with the responsibilities you’ve committed yourself to because you’re too busy?  Is that a valid excuse?  I don’t think so.  I feel terrible each time I forget the blog and I think to myself “you have too much going on and need to learn to say no to these other things” and yet……I say yes again.  I’m talking about volunteer work, housework, supporting friends and family through struggles that you don’t understand or support, but you’re trying to support the person and not the action.  How do you separate the two?

It’s late now and like I told you my brain is on overdrive.  I know people say ‘I’ll sleep when I’m dead’ but I don’t want the lack of sleep to kill me.  Give me Dr. Oz and Dr. Phil!!  lol.  Love to hear what they’d say.

Have a great rest of your week!  Remember that Christmas is coming and you need to get shopping!  (Oh great – something else to think about!!)